I am TERRIFIED of it.
I started out looking at used cars on local sites like NextDoor, Craigslist, etc. Then I went looking at certified pre-owned. Then end of the season 2019 models. After 4 weeks of this madness. I drove over to a Kia dealership, found the PERFECT car for me. It is a model that works for my family, exact color I wanted, all the extra little bells and whistles that make a new car nice.
It is the first NEW new car I have ever owned.
Here is the list of cars I have owned:
Cadillac Cimarron (lemon), Chevrolet Celebrity, Dodge Colt (lawsy, I HATED that one), Mazda B2200 pickup truck, Chevrolet Lumina, and my last beloved car – 2004 Honda Odyssey.
It is so scary to own this new car. Why can’t I just enjoy my first new car? Because so many things can go wrong! I can wreck it. Some other idiot can run into me and wreck it. It can be a lemon. The cost can drain my funds. I can get sick. I feel guilty for spending so much. I feel cheated for not being a bigger bulldog and negotiating a lower price. I feel like I was too extravagant purchasing a NEW car when I clearly could have purchased a used one for much, much less. I feel like my family and friends will be disappointed that I did not hold out for a lower price.
I miss my 20 year old self who didn’t care one way or another about car care, car prices, cars breaking down, etc. Why can’t she come back to me?